im not in the mood :(

dont cheer me . let me be like this .
at least i know what im thinking ..




sometimes , there's a way to be .
but none of us wanted to take the risk .




thought alot tonite ..
what will happen if im better in my characteristic ?
what will happen if there's a better solution for it ?


i know im not a good friend .
im not the best ofcus .


but why ?
i cant figure out the answer by myself .
they are just like that ..
dont like to tell and yet they let others know but not me .


im not emo .
i just simply dont want to talk .
i cant give a smile in front of them .
i cant communicate so well with them like previouss .
it is so strange to be like that .

she dont know. they dont know.




it is almost a month being like this ..
but who cares ?

she cares ? I care ? or they care ?



he is just so a good friend .
but after a moment , he doesn't want to talk with me anymore .
im not wrong with him , nothing ..
what sparked between us , i dont know .
he used to talk so fierce to me ..
it was too obvious .
he knows .
but is that my fault too ?



我瞬间成了一个无关紧要的人 ..
你说友情可靠 ;
但为什么它偏偏却是那么轻易地被动摇 ?




thanks CC . you made me feel better after the sms .
i should not be like that right ?
or maybe i should change right ?


i know , he is always there for me ..
i cannot act to be nothing in front of him =(


tears come please ;-(

solution please come ..
braveness please come ...