vexation ? yupp , its quite often in my life now . i'm being regret for what have been happened in these few days . occasionally , i'm down . you may see me laughing around , fooling around and playing around like normal . but deeply , i'm not that . i felt stupid on myself sometimes . i shouldn't help them at first . why am i so care about them ? i don't know . people scold at me because of my foolish , but i kept quiet . maybe they were right , i don't have to help them . i should let them to solve themselves . maybe i was too care about them ? finally , end up with regret , disappointed and trouble , i have nothing to talk with them now . not because of no topics , is it because of i was deeply disappointed on it . i told myself not to care them and even help them anymore . then ? no result . no other special reasons for me . what they wanna do , its not what i can care it anymore . i will be quiet .


sometimes i think , i enjoy my classmates more than them . at least i don't have to pretend anything in front of them . i rather to be with my classmates . they were enjoy , high and playful . no stress i can see on them XD

i just wanna finish my study af fast , and it will be more peaceful :)